Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Yesterday was sort of a surreal day. While we went on with a beautiful day of yard work, apple processing, pom-pom dancing, playing, book reading and family fun, so many many of our friends were hurting so deeply.

*A girl that grew up in our church had a lung aneurysm and is in critical condition needing a miracle to stay alive.

*A dear family from Cody's hometown who lost their young mother to cancer just a few months ago lost one of their teenage sons to suicide today. The dad found him.

*A dear couple that had me as their flower girl when I was a little girl set up a caringbridge site today for the husband who is just in his 50's and is terminally ill with cancer.

*We also received a message that two young men from our church family have lost their mom to cancer. They are just young guys with young wives...

My heart is hurting for these people and their families! Yet, I'm able to go on with my life: cuddling my babies, packing lunches, cooking, shopping...doing all the things I love. I feel so selfish--why am I so blessed? Why are others go through such tragedies and trials? I "know" the reason...to bring glory to God. But the reality of their pain can open the door for fear to creep into my heart: what is God going to do in my life to bring glory to Him? I start thinking thoughts of a vengeful God, rather than a merciful, loving, comforting, heavenly Father. It's not God "actively doing" these tragedies, it's God permitting them--Satan and sin would seek to destroy, but God seeks to draw us unto Himself to be our Father. God shows Himself as God in amazingly real ways that we see so much more during trials. Oh, we can see how He is God during times without trials, as well, but do we really take the time like we should? I'm learning that in trials and in times of peace, my Savior must be real to me all the time. My affections must be set on things above, not on things on the earth. My focus must be living for the glory of God. Everything I have is a gift from God...it's all His! As I fight the fears, I must remember that nothing is going to happen that is out of God's hands. I feel so blessed to know Christ my Savior and to know that He is TRUE comfort and TRUE peace!

Please be praying for all of these hurting people that they may cling to their Savior!

Psalm 27

1 The Lord is my light and my salvation—
so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
so why should I tremble?
2 When evil people come to devour me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
3 Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will not be afraid.
Even if I am attacked,
I will remain confident.

4 The one thing I ask of the Lord
the thing I seek most—
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord’s perfections
and meditating in his Temple.
5 For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
he will hide me in his sanctuary.
He will place me out of reach on a high rock.
6 Then I will hold my head high
above my enemies who surround me.
At his sanctuary I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy,
singing and praising the Lord with music.

7 Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!
8 My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
9 Do not turn your back on me.
Do not reject your servant in anger.
You have always been my helper.
Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me,
O God of my salvation!
10 Even if my father and mother abandon me,
the Lord will hold me close.

11 Teach me how to live, O Lord.
Lead me along the right path,
for my enemies are waiting for me.
12 Do not let me fall into their hands.
For they accuse me of things I’ve never done;
with every breath they threaten me with violence.
13 Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness
while I am here in the land of the living.

14 Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

2 comments:

Mama Foster said...

thank you for sharing this passage and your thoughts...it is easy to get caught up in the worldy junk thats going on and to worry about what could happen to us. needed that reminder to focus on things above!

Mandolin said...

(sigh) life is just full of these moments, the bad mixed with the good... thanks for putting it into words. We are praying for that miracle...